Friendless

hello blogger! it's been a looong time since my last post. many things that I want to share here, in my blog. but there's no need... who wants to read my blog anyway-_-
blog is my electronic diary. whenever i feel lonely, blog is my runaway.
have you ever felt lonely in the crowded place? have you ever tried to understand other people but you can't understand yourself? have you ever laughed to cover up your sorrow? have you ever tried to make everyone happy, but you can't make yourself happy? have you ever felt like you don't have anyone to be trusted to? i have:)
I don't think I want to talk about it to anyone. I mean... can they understand? they're not into it, they're not feel what I feel. how can they know? I just want to keep the problem with me.. but, I can't stay like that. I'm also human. I have my limit. but, I can't tell it to anyone, no one can be trusted. so, I decided to write the story in blog. like a graveyard, no one's gonna walk by my blog and be bothered to read all posts.
i have a friend, the best one. i believe in her, no doubt. i told her all my secrets, we played together anytime, shared stupid things together, we had our own conversation, we had the same thought in everything, we did everything together. you know, something like bestfriends would do. but, the problems begin to come since we're in the same class for about 2 years. well, i knew her since junior high school, we've been friends for about 5 years. even more. the problems come in the waaaaaay trututututututrututututu. suddenly BAM we've become silent. no one talks to each other. she doesn't want to talk to me. and I don't want to talk to her either. she doesn't want to play with me, when the school time is over, she disappear, like she's going to another world, has her own business, don't want me to come around. i can't even find her after school hahahahaha once, I want to tell her about my problem, in purpose she can give advice. but, she doesn't even reply my text:) you know how hurt it  is? like someone tries to take your heart out slowly. i ask her why did she become silent, if i did something wrong, tell me straight ahead. i mean, how long we've been friends?

ticket.....

i know i should never be that careless anymore... in my last post about ticket, i told you how i get the ticket right? even i uploaded the ticket???? I UPLOADED THE TICKET THAT TIME? you know how careless I am! GOD PLEASEEEEE WHAT HAVE I DONE? I know that kind of stuff shouldn't be happen. I just can pray.... pray.... pray thousand year.... pray for the ticket.... pray that ticket wasn't being faked by anyone. oh pleasee take me to that time.. oh no no no no no NOOOOOOOOOOOO how can this happen *lost 10 years of life*

Final Round!

Hello fellas! it's me again yay do the groove together right here right there yeaaah
i'm absolutely in the very good mood! well, it's got something to do with the last post. after struggle in the online war more than 3 days, and sank in the ocean of sorrow... like 3 thousand years... hahahaha FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! I'VE GOT THE TICKET!!! BIG BANG TICKET IS ON MY HANDS RITE NOW YUHUUUUUUUUUUU THANKS GOD, MY EYES EVEN TEARY:') 

that's it....
I mean... i just got the voucher, so I need to replace it a day before the show.. or i don't know either:/ after all i just got the ticket... ooooh i can't believe it:') well i'm overacting
just wanna tell this, i cutted my hair OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MY HAIRRRRRRR *grab*

Struggling Part II

I don't know what's going on in my last post, i can't text any words more. well i will conintue it here. what a long long long story chics.
yea truth hurts. then the last thing i have to do is to find "calo" in twitter. when i searched the people that selling ticket illegally, there were a bunch that popped out in the page! i couldn't forgive the people who bought many tickets in original price then selling tickets in high price to the people that don't get tickets. but i couldn't deny that i should buy tickets from them since i have no tickets, what a decision:/ when i was out of hope, no one lend me a tickets with normal price, my friend told me that there were still tickets available in the next 24 hours in ticket.com! i still have chance! i think, THIS IS IT! THIS REALLY IS! THE WAR (among me and the people that didn't get tickets before) NOW BEGIN!!!! I SHOULD REALLY GET THAT! WML CHICSSSSS

Struggling

HELLO CHICS! How're ya doin!

for the past 3 months, i'm a big fan of the coolest korean boyband ever, Big Bang! in the first time you saw them on the video clip, you might think they're freak, such a fanatic, with their unique style. first time i saw them in the mv...... they were G-Dragon(in the middle) and TOP (2nd row from the right) in their subgroup, named as GD&TOP, they were so cool in their high high mv! ah you should watch it, for real. i'm dying to watch they're rapping. sounds like i'm the fanatic one....... i don't think i could be a big fan of a korean boyband before. i screwed at them, told everyone that interested in korean boyband is a kind of fanatic habit at the first place. but right now, right here, i am the one who's telling the bloggers, that Big Bang is the coolest korean boyband ever?:| people are hard to be understood.
but then they made a return for their new album, "Alive" but really, they are the coolest! they made their mv in the new york and made a *bang* in all over the world! their single explodes in worldwide chart. they appear in UK chart, america, even in italy. they won italy MTV awards not a long time ago. maybe in march. or when? their rivals are... avril lavigne and 1D... seriously, they're not gonna lose with 1D. now, they  are preparing for their world tour, called as "Alive Tour" they're gonna make a concert in 25 cities in 16 countries, including North&South America, Europe, and Asia. of course, they will hold a concert in Jakarta B-) hold on VIPs, you're gonna meet your idols.

BUT! THE  FIGHT IN GET THE TICKETS IS SO DAMN HARD! think about it, the promotor, @bigdaddyid and the tickets management, @myticketid, told me by twitter, that online ticket selling would be held on June 9th and 10th, and the offline ticket selling would be held on June 11th. in 9th, @10.00am my internet was so lame that almost made me going crazehhhh. as the result, i didn't get any tickets when they opened the sale:/ think about it! over 48.000 people tried to access myticket.co.id so that the server went down, and the promotor needed to fixed it in the first place. and all the people were diverted into ticket.com. and as fast as blinking my eyes, the tickets in ticket.com were sold out:| that was drive me insane. but! the tickets that were sold out, just a 30% out of full quota. because myticket.co.id were down, and in the reparation (what do you think is it? a car?-_-), all tickets in myticket.co.id were still available, and no tickets were bought @10.00am. so the people who didn't get any tickets from ticket.com still had a hope. myticket.co.id would open the sale @2.00pm, it was the second round of online ticket war:< absolutely... absolutely... i was a moron, the stupid thing i had done before. i left my laptop and i went out for awhile and bam! like a magic happened! as fast as light speed! i don't know where that people came from! like a monster... when i get back to my home @2.05pm, and i opened the website. BANG! the boom explodes in my brain. like my brain turned into pieces. all the tickets were sold out, both in myticket.co.id and in ticket.com. were that people really a human?????? the tickets sold out in 5 minutes?!!!!! really, i can't help it.
i was hopeless and i opened the twitter to see if there were any hopes.. if there were the promotor and tickets management updated that the tickets were not sold out.. but.. yea truth hurts

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