Well, it's been ages since the last time i wrote a dramatic story. So, these days i'm waiting for Taeyang's new album. And! Finally! After........ how long is it? three years since the first album? well, I don't know much about Taeyang. And nowwwwww i'm listening to it!!! waaaaa his voice is sooo adorable... and it melts me awwwww i wish i can have him to sing for me all night long. Taeyang and I..... together at the night........ letting him singing........ HOAA. everything was great, I was screaming around, melting away when listen to his music... before I read the lyrics..... in english. you know, Taeyang is one of Korean's artist, so his song is all written in Korean, and I don;t know what it means. Then I read the lyrics in english... and it's all touching. and it makes my eyes teary. nope, actually not teary. I'm crying as fuck. Makes me remember the old days........... a year ago..........
these songs make me cry.............. the lyrics are so touching...
03 1AM
Composer: Teddy, Choice37, Boys Noize
Lyrics: Teddy
Arrangement: Teddy, Choice37, Boys Noize
I’m forgetting you one by one, burying memories of you
As if it was just a typical dream, it’s all right
So I try to awkwardly smile once again
When your thick scent passes by me, I die, kills me inside
Stop thinking about her, stop missing her
How can I erase you for today?
So I jump in my car go for a ride
Scream as if I’m crazy, hands in the air
My friends say it’s over, that it’ll be okay
As they comfort me with a smile
But I just want you by my side right now
I mindlessly chat with them
Get drunk in the music
Holding on to the end of the night as I dance
And when I think of you, it’s 1AM
As if I forgot you, I just start laughing
Spending nights with strange faces
Holding on to the end of the night as I dance
And when I think of you, it’s 1AM
I remember your pretty eyes that let me go
So coldly, as if it was nothing
But now I’m indifferent
If you can peacefully be happy, I’m okay with that, it’s okay
That’s a lie, that’s the truth
I get confused thousands of times a day
Should I start seeing someone new?
I start to look, wandering here and there as if I’m crazy
It’s over now, it’s okay
As if it’s nothing, I talk about you
But I just want you by my side right now
I mindlessly chat with them
Get drunk in the music
Holding on to the end of the night as I dance
And when I think of you, it’s 1AM
As if I forgot you, I just start laughing
Spending nights with strange faces
Holding on to the end of the night as I dance
And when I think of you, it’s 1AM
I think of you, my heart aches, I can’t stop thinking about you, can’t stop
I think of you, my heart aches, I can’t stop thinking about you, can’t stop
I mindlessly chat with them
Get drunk in the music
Holding on to the end of the night as I dance
And when I think of you, it’s 1AM
As if I forgot you, I just start laughing
Spending nights with strange faces
Holding on to the end of the night as I dance
And when I think of you, it’s 1AM
1AM song describes my everyday's feeling:" because of heartbreak (causes of that one asshole living in the corner of Java) I distanced myself from anyone else. No, I'm not friendless. I have friends, but I don't have faith in them. I didn't tell anyone what I'm feeling, because I know, even though I tell them, the one who understands myself is me, just me. I helped people because I don;t want them feeling helpless and empty and lonely.. like I did. I told suck things, I told people I don't like that I don't like them, because I was once living in lies and don't want anybody feels the way I was. I was once have friends, make laugh, tell stories, chat over, sleep over, singing like crazy, telling them I love them.. but at the point of time, I kept running, I left them, I distance myself from them, stop calling them, stop having a chit chat and I'm being all alone again. It's not like I don't like them. I like them. But, I'm afraid, they'll forget me someday. It'll be hurt. I'm afraid of giving much love then don't get love as much as i give. I'm afraid of being left by someone someday. They're having their own convos, they make surprises for their friend's birthday, they go eat together. But, I'm not there. I'm feeling left out. So I decided to keep myself at the distance with them. I'm afraid of being hurt and giving love.
Everytime I lost myself.... I tried to find another personality. One time I can be a happiest person in the world, I laugh, talking without any pause. But at any time, I can be a sarcastic person, throwing sarcasm to everyone, mumbling to someone I don't like, don't care what people say. Sometime I can be someone-that-you-need-to-avoid. And at any time, I enjoy myself alone, don't let anyone get into my area. But sometime, I feel like I lost my true self. I'm finding. I'm trying to figure out, how I should act to make people love me. At time like that, I just throw myself to music. Dancing like crazy, dancing till the end of the night trying to get a thing to be hold. I'm helpless.
04 Stay With Me (feat. G-Dragon)
Composer: G-Dragon, The Fliptones, JHart
Lyrics: G-Dragon
Arrangement: The Fliptones
You have the same sad face as me
Won’t you stay with me
A-yo what’s up baby girl
You’re especially more beautiful today
How’ve you been? It’s awkward between us right now
I just wondered, everthing feels so strange
I pretend to be cool and start talking to you so you won’t be uncomfortable
The atmosphere gets better at our cute jokes
Even when I get serious sometimes, you just take it lightly
It’s funny, at some point, the wine and tea are empty
But it feels really full, there’s something
Was so lonely, you know how I feel
I’ve waited all day
You pretend to be strong on purpose to push me out
But you’re softer than anyone else, my darling darling
You have the same sad face as me
Won’t you stay with me, come to me
Your lips don’t agree but your eyes tell me you want me
Won’t you stay with me, come to me
We’re walking on the night streets just like we did before
Close enough for anyone to think we’re lovers
Dancing up on each other at a crowded club
Hey did you maybe flirt with me a little bit
You’re drunk with alcohol, I’m drunk with your eyes, nose, lips, body
Your breath that whispers in my ear paralyzes me
Now baby I will take you home
I’ll hug you tight for one last time
It was on that balcony, early in the morning
Do you remember? We waved with our hands
We were so perfect on that day
But I turn around by myself once again falling falling
You have the same sad face as me
Won’t you stay with me, come to me
Your lips don’t agree but your eyes tell me you want me
Won’t you stay with me, come to me
Let yourself stay in this moment without a word
When tonight passes, a new day will start
I only have you, you’re my only love
He don’t hesitate and just as you are, stay with me
For worse or for better
Just stay with me forever
For worse or for better
Just stay with me forever
You have the same sad face as me
Won’t you stay with me, come to me
Your lips don’t agree but your eyes tell me you want me
Won’t you stay with me, come to me
Stay With Me describes how I feel. I was in a relationship with the asshole living in the corner of Java that maybe now is so happy about himself don't mind what kind of mistake he did to someone in here! HERE WRITING SUCH A SAD THING ABOUT HERSELF IN BLOG LIKE SHE DOESN'T HAVE A FRIEND OR A MAN OR ANYTHING TO TALK TO. I hope he's happy, knowing I lost myself because of him, when he reads this (i hope he's not) he must be saying this to himself "oh, is that how important I am to you?" well in case you read this, NO! you're not.
But, come to think of it. he must be someone i love too much (too much till I don't know is it a loyalty or a stupidity that I stayed with him and believe in all his 'sayings'). The lyrics really knock me out. You have the same sad face as me.. like well I know I cover my face with smile, but.. yes I'm sad. It's awkward when we met, I don't talk as much as I used to be in old days when we were together. But no, no, I'm not getting much beautiful haha it's stated at the lyrics. Yes, when we met, you started talking to me like nothing happens, melt my cold heart, tear down my defense wall. You build a comfortable atmosphere, letting me make jokes, i know it didn't funny at all. I was so lonely, meeting you after we break up was the biggest mistake in my life, and I keep saying lies to myself like "I won't give him a chance anymore" or "I won't meet him again in my life, even if he begs" no, even if he doesn't beg, I know I can't reject the invitation. Yes, I'm trying to be strong so that nobody can hurt me. I'm trying to be strong so that you won't look down on me. I'm trying to be strong so I can find out my personality, I don't want to live in your shadow anymore, I don't want to remember the past. I want to get back my pride, build my defense, and live a peaceful life. No one can live in the sorrow forever. No one can be truly strong at the first place. No one wants their weakness to be seen. After all, no one wants to repeat the same mistakes twice, we're not a donkey. It's all starting from a try. This song reminds me of our last affair. You know, watched movies, had a chit chat, walked down the city in the night, exchanging phone number, and you left without saying any goodbyes.
I wanna ask, which one is better, leave without saying goodbye or saying goodbye a hundred times with a hope to come back?