hello blogger! it's been a looong time since my last post. many things that I want to share here, in my blog. but there's no need... who wants to read my blog anyway-_-
blog is my electronic diary. whenever i feel lonely, blog is my runaway.
have you ever felt lonely in the crowded place? have you ever tried to understand other people but you can't understand yourself? have you ever laughed to cover up your sorrow? have you ever tried to make everyone happy, but you can't make yourself happy? have you ever felt like you don't have anyone to be trusted to? i have:)
I don't think I want to talk about it to anyone. I mean... can they understand? they're not into it, they're not feel what I feel. how can they know? I just want to keep the problem with me.. but, I can't stay like that. I'm also human. I have my limit. but, I can't tell it to anyone, no one can be trusted. so, I decided to write the story in blog. like a graveyard, no one's gonna walk by my blog and be bothered to read all posts.
i have a friend, the best one. i believe in her, no doubt. i told her all my secrets, we played together anytime, shared stupid things together, we had our own conversation, we had the same thought in everything, we did everything together. you know, something like bestfriends would do. but, the problems begin to come since we're in the same class for about 2 years. well, i knew her since junior high school, we've been friends for about 5 years. even more. the problems come in the waaaaaay trututututututrututututu. suddenly BAM we've become silent. no one talks to each other. she doesn't want to talk to me. and I don't want to talk to her either. she doesn't want to play with me, when the school time is over, she disappear, like she's going to another world, has her own business, don't want me to come around. i can't even find her after school hahahahaha once, I want to tell her about my problem, in purpose she can give advice. but, she doesn't even reply my text:) you know how hurt it is? like someone tries to take your heart out slowly. i ask her why did she become silent, if i did something wrong, tell me straight ahead. i mean, how long we've been friends?
